You'll find me underneath

kodicals @ 2006-08-29T08:20:00

2006-08-29T12:22:12Z

summers boyfriend found a dog.
its cute. no owners have stepped forward.

so i named him joey. joey nubler, thats his rock star name. heweights 4.4 pounds and i like to refer to him as my paris hilton dog.

he has a streak of black in his tail and his ears. those are his rock star streaks.

kodicals @ 2006-04-15T22:56:00

2006-04-16T03:04:48Z

List 10 musical artists you like (do this before reading the questions below).

01. hanson
02. butch walker
03. the working title
04. rufus wainwright
05. howie day
06. marvelous 3
07. the films
08. will hoge
09. the killers
10. graham colton band

What was the first song you ever heard by 6?:
freak of the week, duhhh

What is your favorite album of 8?:
blackbird on a lonely wire

What is your favorite lyric of 5?:
i wanna turn it around for you. dont turn away.

How many times have you seen 1 live?:
three? four? i dont know.

What is your favorite song of 7?
lately it has been The Kind Of Day

Is there a song of 3 that makes you sad?
Cabaret. i was listening to that song when i found out ryan died. the first words i heard at that moment was "did i say goodbye? you'll be gone tomorrow. and im crying in your arms but you're not here... and i can see your face... everytime i close my eyes this cabaret......oh ill remember everything you said to me..oh, the day i release you in my heart i'll say goodbye......i'll take time to write down everything you said to me..."

it was horrible. i still cry when i hear it.

What is your favorite lyric of 4?
theres WAYY too many.

What is your favorite song by 8?:
so cool

How did you get into 3?:
went to a battle of the bands to see friends and they were there. it was love at first sight.

What is your favorite song by 2?:
oh my god every butch walker song EVER. hehe.

What is a good memory concerning 9?:
david.

Is there a song by 8 that makes you sad?:
nah

What is your favorite song of 1?:
More Than Anything!

How did you become a fan of 10?:
i had to pick up their cd at the recording studio for the radio station i worked for and i saw them live the next night and fell in love.. :)

kodicals @ 2006-04-03T14:50:00

2006-04-03T18:51:37Z

everything i feel right now is said right here:

You're not sure that you love me
But you're not sure enough to let me go
Baby it ain't fair
You know you just keep me hanging round
You say you don't wanna hurt me
Don't wanna see my tears
So why are you still standing here
Just watching me drown

And it's alright
Yeah, I'll be fine
Don't worry about this heart of mine
Just, take your love and hit the road
Cause nothing you can do or say
You're gonna break my heart anyway
So just leave the pieces when you go

Now you can drag out the heartache
Baby you can make it quick
You can get it over with and let me move on
Don't concern yourself with this mess you left for me
I can clean it up you see
Just as long as you're gone

You're not making up your mind
It's killin' me
You're wasting time
I need so much more then that

Leave the pieces when you go
Leave the pieces when you go

10 things i hate about you.

2006-04-02T06:21:25Z

I hate the way you talk to me
and the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car.
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots
And the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick.
It even makes me rhyme.
I hate the way you're always right.
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh;
Even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it when you're not around
And the fact that you didn't call,
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you;
Not even close;
Not even a little bit;
Not even at all.

annoyed with life

2006-03-28T23:59:35Z

sometimes i just want to sit in my room and cry.
a lot lately.

i don't know why i'm just not happy anymore. i think it's because im unhappy with where i am. I've been forced to write this career paper for one of my classes on what i want to do in life. and i have no fucking idea. i realized im unhappy with public relations and business. i have NO idea what i want to do. it makes me upset and angry.

and then theres this pressure from my family of always doing well in school. i'm doing pretty shitty this semester to be honest with you. everyone wants me to quit my job. i just want to quit at life right now. i just want time to figure everything out. figure myself out. figure my life out right now.

everything is hurting me. i missed mark when he came down here last week because of work. i havent seen him in a year and it makes me want to bawl my eyes out because i miss him.

my living situation is shit for next year. my parents want me to live with my brother but he has NEVER ONCE given me the time of day. why the hell would i live iwth him?

so anywayy. theres my venting for this evening..

kodicals @ 2005-09-01T14:45:00

2005-09-01T18:47:32Z

it feels like the end of the world is coming.

this old man came into my work today and said "we're going barreling fast towards the end just like in the book" and i was like "what?"hes like "the book." and i was like "what book?" and hes like "the Bible" hes like "everyone wants to ignore it... but its coming.. fast" then i argued with him over drilling in anwar.

everywhere in cola is almost out of gas.

this sucks

kodicals @ 2005-07-14T12:05:00

2005-07-14T16:05:53Z

i hate the summer. please make it fall really really soon.

thanks, <3 kodi.

kodicals @ 2004-04-27T00:32:00

2004-04-27T04:35:03Z

kodicals @ 2004-04-25T14:08:00

2004-04-25T18:09:32Z

i woke up today with blood covering my ear. i honestly think my tragus is like "BITCH I THOUGHT I TOLD YOU IF U PIERCE ME ONE MORE TIME ALL HELL IS GOING TO BREAK LOOSE" it sucks. my ear really hurts too. i didnt even sleep on that side. it just decided to bleed. it hates me.

a brand new orange instead...

2004-04-25T00:24:12Z

i'm sad.. i absolutely love charleston but everything is going to be different in a matter of two weeks. this year is almost at its end, and im actually finding it to be really sad. not because of classes... but you know how you get into a routine.. and then something goes and fucks it all up? yea.. thats whats gonna happen. Change. But you can't stop it. you just have to keep rolling on with the flow. so today was quite interesting. went to folly beach, down to the battery, and to the market. I felt so much like a tourist, but it was fun. I still cannot find a necklace i want. Arg, i want a hemp one but i dont want one of the small ones.. but not one of the huge big ones either.. im so picky. plus, it cannot have metal on it because i'm allergic to that shit. Oh well... I will keep on searching.

so anyway, i think im going to go now. i cannot decide what i'm doing tonight. im not in the mood to go out... but i know i should. so, i will figure it all out and let you know tomorrow what events went on tonight.

i feel like its time to.. recap.

2004-04-24T18:46:27Z

so as i sit here eating my warmed up lo mein noodles *YUM* im recapping everything that happened this past week.

it really scares me as to finding out what i found out about some people i graduated with. one of my good friends in HS, jordin kerbs, told me shes engaged. i honestly cannot believe some people.. who are 18!!!! are engaged. thats nuts. and then i found out this other girl i went to HS with, amy verberg, is getting married because SHES PREGNANT! Thats fucking nuts. Gawd I cannot believe that. I guess I'm still rather proud to say I'm a virgin. Not because of religious reasons because hell, we all know I'm not religious at all. And not because I think sex is going to be this wonderful amazing thing, just because, I dont think I'm ready to have to deal with that kind of shit afterwards. The whole idea of taking a chance and stuff.. plus being allergic to latex does kind of have a big effect on the decision. Haha. And as far as being engaged... hell I still haven't dated someone I truly care about... I still haven't gone into a relationship thinking "i want this to last as long as one can imagine." As scary as it seems, I think I probably will end up never getting married. I don't think I'll ever fall in love with someone who feels the same way about me. That really does terrify me. I don't want to die alone.

Besides that, this week has been really good. I went to the beach yesterday and attempted to get sun. That didn't really work. Ha. My skin is just officially bleached out. I got my tragus repierced too. I'm glad. I really like this piercing. I hope I don't have as much trouble with it as I did before. Theres only 3 more days of school left. It's great. I'm going home wednesday.. but I want to stay for Will Hoge. I absolutely love that man. His live performance is amazing. But... getting a hair appointment and shit comes first. I know, I'm lame. But seriously my roots are like almost an inch long! ick! No one can tell but I can.. I KNOW theyre there. I'm such a weirdo.
Alright well... im going to go take a shower now. I didnt get up til 2 today because *SOMEONE* decided to call our dorm room 5 times and then bang on the door/kick the door/write on our door at 5 fucking AM because he was drunk. Thanks mark.

kodicals @ 2004-04-23T22:36:00

2004-04-24T02:41:02Z

stolen from jenna

A - Age: 19
B - Boyfriend: no :( no one likes me

C - Chore you hate: MFing laundry
D - Dad’s name & occupation: Gary- managerienguehugwheuheuhfueh engineeru thingy majiggerrr troubleshooter... hell i dont know the exact name
E - Essential everyday item(s): my watch
F - Favorite actor/actress: eli wood and i dunno
G - Gold or silver: silver
H - Hometown: cola,sc
I - Instruments you play: uhm.. nada
J - Job: uh.. what?
K - Kids: no thank you
L - Living arrangements: elise crystal and sara
M - Mother’s name and occupation: cindy- domestic engineer (fancy term for house wife)
N - Name and who are you named after: kodi and no one
O - Overnight hospital stays: ew
P - Phobia: meat

Q - Quote Scripture you like:
EW no. fuck off
R - Ride you have: ford escape
S - Shows/Soaps you like: uhh
T - Time you wake up: eh depends
U - Unique habit: uh
V - Vegetable(s)/Fruit(s) you refuse to eat: beans and tomatoes
W - Worst habit: procrastination
X - X-rays you’ve had: a lot
Y - Yummy food you make: uh
Z - zodiac sign: libra

its done.

2004-04-22T23:56:38Z

i got my tragus repierced today. yey. i am happy.

:)

2004-04-20T22:46:49Z

so today has been a great day.. ive been kind of procrastinating but its okay! i woke up, went to english, took my Geology lab final, walked out with confidence... went and bought hansons new cd... the dvd version (YEY) and then came back and listened to it. then went to see jump's instore.. haha i felt so bad b/c claire wanted their autographs so we stood in line.. and i dont really know the guys... i kind of know ward b/c he sees me at johnnys all the time.... anyway.. matt looked at me like "wtf u didnt buy our cd"... haha or "wtf u dont want my autograph?" i dont know... im just not into the autograph shit anymore.. unless it is hanson. haha. and i already had bought a 20 sumin dollar hanson cd... i cant afford buying theirs right now. their instore was good tho. theyre so fucking talented. so anyway.. ive gotta get some work done. the working title is playing tonight. i absolutely love that band. hanson and twt in one day. its just... wonderful.

kodicals @ 2004-04-20T00:04:00

2004-04-20T04:04:40Z

You're "Jessie's Girl" by Rick
Springfield

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heyy

2004-04-20T00:36:15Z

hey im bored so im posting pics. yey to pics! too bad none of them are new...

this one time.. at this valentines day party.. i got really drunk and told everyone i wanted to kill brantley cuz he hooked up with someone else. yea, that night i was fucked up and out of my mind. the night of the bitch. haha.. thats me and dj. he used to play for the working title. i was drunk and went up to him and hadnt talked to him since he left the band. i said "dj do u remember me" and he said "yea.. but i dont remember your name." haha... yea... i was fucked up. and then i lost my camera twice. dj found it in the bathroom the first time. brady found it on a bed the second time.

i'm friends with this guy named johnny diamond. he is a manager for bands. he is cool. one time me, him, little d, jodi, nate, and a bunch of other ppl had a party at his dads house when he was out of town. we got really drunk and watched porn. johnny came out of the room with this hat on and a flower in his mouth. i just had to take a picture.

last year crystal and I were really excited about moving to charleston for college so we went on trips down here all the time. this is a time when we dragged meredith and lydia with us. wow. my hair was really blonde.

one time i talked parker into coming over to my dorm and hang out with me. he was really drunk. i made him tell the story about the "you will not eat my pussy" lady at the gas station to all my roommates.

for elises birthday this year we all got along and went out to eat and then went to the beach. elise and i are really different but lately we've been getting along really well. im going to live with her this summer. come see us in charleston.

this is in the background but u cannot see us. sara thought it would be funny to pick me up and go and throw me in the ocean. i, however, found it to be very mean and cold--literally.

these are the guys I usually hang out with. haha we all look funny in this picture. i went through a phase were id just sit there and take one shot of vodka after another. i was fucked up before we even went out. this was a night when we went to brady's friend Chad's house for a party. yep... that was an interesting night. haha.

okay thats if for now.. i hope i kept yall entertained.

kodicals @ 2004-04-18T23:33:00

2004-04-19T03:35:32Z

OKAY... should i get this (MY TRAGUS) repierced??? yes? no? what??

kodicals @ 2004-04-18T20:15:00

2004-04-19T00:16:41Z

i always have dreams of losing teeth. check out this. its almost scary.

Dreams about losing one's teeth are common and suggest the dreamer feels powerless or out of control in a real life situation. If teeth are falling out: Apprehension about maturing and facing independence and responsibility; loss of attractiveness

scaryyyy this is the site its from http://nobara.0catch.com/dd/body_parts.html

another one of these things..

2004-04-18T20:27:18Z

STOLEN FROM VER! :) I'm bored.

-DESCRIBE / TELL?
[three words that sum you up]: talkative, outgoing, quiet
[jewelry worn daily]: my swatch watch... and usually my titanium earrings since theyre the only ones i can wear.. curse being allergic to metal.
[wallet]: its uhm black... its from nine west. its old now. it has so much shit in it... and by that, i dont mean money. i mean junk.

[coffee]: mmm starbucks <3
[shoes]: i live in charleston. the only thing we wear are flip flops.
[cologne/perfume]: i swear once this year is over if i never have to smell that vanilla shit ever again ill be happy. every time i smell vanilla i think of pot b/c its what sara and crystal use to try and cover up the smell.
[clothing you have on]: my pj pants and a tank top

?MIXED QUESTIONS?
[wishing]: i wasnt as stressed out and upset
[after this]: i need to do hw
[talking to]: absolutely no one
[eating]: nope havent done that in awhile
[fetishes]: teeth. i love straight white teeth. oo and smiles. <3
[some favorite movies]: About A Boy.. i've watched it 6 times this week. I also love almost famous, requiem for a dream, donnie darko, etc
[something you're looking forward to]: finishing the year up and going to cityfest with lara

[last thing you ate]: i dont remember. oh i think it was a pickle when i was drunk.
[something you're afraid of]: meat.
[if you could have any animal as a pet]: a pot belly pig named butch
[cities you wouldn?t mind moving too]: NYC or london
[some favorite foods]: pickles and cheese on everything. ha

[something -or someone- you wish you could understand better]: jason maurer

[miss someone you haven't seen in a long time]: aww :( hkd.. and jason maurer :(

?DO YOU?
[like candles]: YES too bad we cant have them here or they will start the fire alarm to go off
[like company]: eh depends on who it is
[believe in soul mates]: no idea

[believe in love at first sight]: i believe theres some kind of force.. that makes people just "click"
[believe in forgiveness]: yes, i dont hold grudges...
[want to get married]: perhaps.. if i actually fall in love
[want to have kids]: i dont know...
[ever want to adopt kids]: maybe?

?IN THE LAST 24 HOURS HAVE YOU...?
[cried]: ive been crying a lot lately.

[bought something]: lots and lots of diet coke. it keeps me going.
[gotten sick]: yea :(

[sang]: all the fucking time <3
[eaten]: no.. wait yes.. that pickle...

[been kissed]: nope..
[felt stupid]: all the time
[wanted to tell someone you love them, but you didn't]: yes
[talked to an ex]: uhm.... i talked to jon yesterday.. so yea
[talked to someone you have a crush on]: haha...
[had a serious talk]: yes.. with elise <3 the best suitemate ever.
[missed someone]: yeah
[hugged someone]: elise and brady

[argued with a parent(s)]: no.. just cried with them
[dreamt about someone you can't be with]: haha yea but not in the last 24 hrs

?SOCIAL LIFE?
[boyfriend/girlfriend]: nope.
[hobbies]: music. hanging with my friends

[pager/cell]: cell.
[are the you the center of attention or a wallflower]: eh depends on the night.. sometimes ill just start chatting with everyone and oh my when i get really drunk ill put on music and pull everyone up and be like DANCE!! and everyone will dance. haha.... thats funny.

[car you drive]: 2003 bright yellow ford escape that has a california license plate on the front that says KODI hahaha <3 my car. its my baby.
[would you rather be with friends or on a date]: with friends.

[job]: me in the work force is a joke. i was telling alan stanley that last night.
[attend church]: no. sorry
[like being around people]: yea mostly

?PERSONAL?
[who is your role model]: my mom
[pet peeves]: people who put on blinkers RIGHT when theyre going to turn. assholes.
[ever liked someone you can't be with]: everyone i like i cannot be with. thats the way it goes.
[ever wanted to get revenge on someone cause they hurt you]: oh yes.
[cried over the opposite sex]: sad day
[your favorite physical appearance]: teeth
[are you happy with yourself]: never will be.. but its ok
[what plans do you have for the future]: who the fuck knows
[who do you really hate]: no one.
[who's your most trustworthy family member]: my family is soo gossiping.. its sad. but i tell my mom EVERYTHING. so i guess her.

kodicals @ 2004-04-17T23:51:00

2004-04-18T04:41:11Z

so as random as it is... my mom called me a little after midnight tonight. she was in tears. my brother and her got into a fight, and my dad then yelled at her too. scott hasnt been coming home. hes 16. he thinks he can stay out as late as he wants. plus, his teeth are going cricked b/c he hasnt been wearing his retainer, AND we've spent all the money on professional bleaching shit and his chewing tobacco has turned them nasty brown. he doesnt answer the phone when we call. so now im talking to her online. to hell with going to a party tonight. laundry, hw, and talking to mom. sounds like a great saturday night. well... not really. but my mom comes first before myself and friends.

when it feels like my dreams are so far...

2004-04-17T20:05:28Z

sing to me of the plans that you have for me over again..... yea, switchfoot's version of only hope rocks. <3 switchfoot. theyre amazing, especially live. I cannot believe how they've exploded lately. Wow. So anyway.. sorry for the negative comments lately.

Butch Walker is going on tour in June. Its about fucking time. That man is the most amazing musician in the world. I swear. He's like a God. If you haven't seen him live, I not telling you to go.. I'm forcing you to go. For your own health, fucking GO!!

Yea.. there's a pic of him I took. He's amazing.

So moving on, I talked to my mom today. Well, I talk to her everyday, but today it was weird. She was telling me about how shes worried about my brother. He's a lot like me, but smarter. He really is very very smart. Anyway, after the whole finding nasty chewing tobacco stuff... and this kid hes been hanging out.. shes getting worried. He's gone from straight A's to all low C's. She thinks hes on drugs of course. I don't think he is dumb enough. Plus, I've talked to him about it. He really thinks horribly about drugs, and he said he has drank before but he doesn't really like it. I don't know. I hope things get back on track soon. My poor mom, having to deal with her depressed college daughter and her son who went from good to bad.

So anyway, you know how my mom and i have saved like 11 cats in the last year.. and her friend has saved some too... well this one cat that we got fixed and tamed, Sydney, aww.. Syd isnt really an indoor cat but he lives in Trish's garage during the night. He got attacked. He has a broken leg and Trish is leaving for a cruise for 3 weeks so mom has to take care of him. Poor baby. We are such suckers for animals, really.

So I'm ending this entry with lines from an great song from the wonderful Elton John:

Until you've seen this trash can dream come true,
You stand at the edge, while people run you through.
And I thank the Lord, there's people out there like you,
I thank the Lord there's people out there like you.

blue jean baby.. LA lady..

2004-04-16T19:50:45Z

shit elise and I are the only ppl here this weekend. At 3pm we officially started drinking. It should be a gooooooodddd night.

my kittyyy

2004-04-16T03:23:32Z

this is my kitty cat roscoe. <3 him. hes 16 yrs old. I miss him. when im gone for college he sits on my bed and cries for me. aww..

fhwiufhw

2004-04-16T02:23:55Z

oh yea.. im officially obsessed with myspace.com and friendster. if you have it.. add me as a friend.

ok an ACTUAL update.. how about this...

2004-04-16T02:18:32Z

Hanson's cd comes out soon. yes... i loveeee me some hanson. I was supposed to be going to NYC this weekend.. to see Conor and those hanson brothers.. but friggin A. Anyway.. instead I am going to be spending my FRIDAY NIGHT going to these stupid lectures for english class extra credit. Seriously.. college is kicking my butt. My journalism teacher from HS emailed me and I seriously miss her. She was like my second mom. I remember spending my 18th birthday with her and beth ann and macie until 8 pm working on yearbook shit. Gaw I loved it though. So anyway.. I've come to the conclusion I'm depressed again. I don't know why. I think its the fact that no matter how hard I'm trying in school it just isn't working. A's and B's last semester.. i will kill myself if i get a C+. I don't get C+s. What happened to Kodi Campbell the over achiever? What happened to me loving everything about my life? What happened to me feeling good about myself?? Arg. I'm sick of it. I haven't eaten in awhile. It's pointless. I took lots of vitamins today thank goodness. At least I'm getting nutrients from there. Kind of? I haven't had much to drink lately either (alcohol wise). So that's good. They say its a depressant. Maybe thats why when you mix anti depressants with a depressant you get realllllyy fucked up (PERSONAL EXPERIENCES). *shakes head in shame*. That one night... 151 one night. Where I walked all over charleston drunk as shit by myself because I just walked off. Where I ended up going to see Mike Robinson and Katie had to help me to the bathroom. Where the room wouldn't stop spinning around and I threw brady's keys off the balcony and cursed him out for no reason at all. Where I ended up spending the rest of the night in bed with the trashcan. Yea. I haven't taken shots since then. I can hardly handle mix drinks. I'm proud though. I still haven't smoked since new years. Well.. that I can remember.. I think I might have smoked one with brady the other night at kirks. Oh being beer drunk is great. Its a happy drunk. Yes it is. That night I invested in wayyy too many beers. Note to self: dont buy 30 beers ever again. WTF was I thinking. So since then I really haven't gone out. I'm slipping away slowly and surely.
So guess what? I know why I SUCK at french now!!! I have a foreign language disability. Whatever the fuck that means. So.... Je deteste francais parque je suis mal en francais. C'est tres difficiles pour moi et..... oh shit nevermind. I quit. I didn't mention how I went to see Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind the other week with Brady and Dj. Omgsh. <3ed it. Def. going to buy it when it comes out. So for the past few days I've watched ABOUT A BOY like over and over... I LOVE that movie. It's the best. Mark and I went to Factor Five yesterday and Brooklyn was working (*yey* the only girl I will let pierce me) and so I showed her how much my tragus has healed and asked her if I can get it repierced soon. She said to keep rubbing it and break down the scar tissue a little more and then come back next week and she will!! I'm excited. I really loved that piercing. I'm not a big piercing person but that one was cute. Mom is going to be pissed off that I got it again.. but my brother made a comment when I was home for easter saying "wheres your earring" and i had to tell him how it got infected. He said he liked it. Yeyyy. So The Working Title had a show this past saturday. Did I say anything about it? I dont think so. Jason Maurer didn't really talk to me. What the hell is up with that kid?! We were like super fucking close and now its like he doesnt want to even talk to me. I don't get it. I'm tired of putting efforts into friendships and getting shit out of them. If they're not putting in the effort then fine, they can find someone else to turn to when they need a shoulder. So uhm.. we all know the guy that I've liked all school year. Well he has a girlfriend now. I think they're adorable. I love her to death too so it's completely fine with me. I still feel like he feels awkward around me.. I'm sorry I told everyone I wanted to kill you for hooking up with someone other than me when I was fucked up on valentines day at your party!! Its the meds!!! and the drinking!! I promise!! I was soooooooo wasted. Sad day. :(
You know whats gonna make me sad? I can't wear scarves anymore. I LOVE THEM!! I wore one to the working title show and it was kind of hot out but i had it on with a short sleeve shirt and i got comments about it. piss off. I can wear what i want. Hilary fucking Duff does it, why can't I? Adam and the rest of the TWT boys are out of town. Aww I finally got to give him his bday card last friday. I had been going over there all week and he was never home. I hung out with him and lauren and parker for awhile. I love them. They're all like my big brother and sisters and just put up with so much of me shit. hahahaha.
So a good band to check out is Limbeck. I finally got to see them live. <3 them! Oh and they had WHITE VINYLS!!!!! I MEAN SERIOUSLY! Thats fucking AMAZING. We gotta go back to playing shit on record players. YEAAAA. Me, my tapestries on the wall, the record player playing, and life would be amazing.

okay thats it for now. ps. someone tell my roomates to stop keeping the AC on 66. I'm getting sick of wearing sweatshirts and thick socks around the room and to bed.